I just wanted to say - thank you so much - for your great, lovely, supportive comments on my last post. Even though it seemed like a bit of a downer compared to the one before it, the turning point/optimism has continued.
I finished the essays that I was whinging a lot about. I really don't have any idea as to how I've done, but I don't have high hopes. I did my best, and hopefully that's enough to get me through. We've now received another piece of coursework that's pretty tough, and it's due in before Christmas. Eek! I have to say, I'm definitely feeling the pressure of final year. It counts for so much more than the other years! :-/
Anyhow, despite the pressure, I'm feeling pretty good. I have to say, the other day I was walking along the road, and I just thought to myself... "yes, I'm happy." I just felt genuinely good. Nothing drastic had changed circumstance wise, the weather was still grey, I still had deadlines, but I thought to myself... I'm happy, I'm totally in charge of what I do, and I feel peaceful in myself. It was a moment that I'd been hoping for, for what seemed to be a long while. But it was when I stopped actively wanting and hoping to feel better that the moment came when I did. It's one big new beginning, and I guess since music is such an important part of my life, you'll hear it in my music. I don't mean I'm going to go all dubstep/
Over the next couple of months I'll be working hard on writing music for TV/film clips for my coursework, but I'll try to post what I do here. I haven't written music in what feels like ages!
(And in between I'll be recording my album tracks. :))
TTFN - I'll get to work. :)
P.S...lovely autumnal colours in Surrey :)