Friday, 31 July 2009
Tuesday, 28 July 2009
I just wanted to say a huuuuuuuuge thankyou to everyone who joined me on BlogTV at the weekend. It was a lot of fun, despite the wasp, and me doing lots of waffling! I'll be doing another one when I've got some more material to show you. :) I'm currently practising for my two hour gig tomorrow (aaaaah!) but after that I hope to start music making with a vengeance!...Die Hard with a Vengeance...Die Hard 1...Alan Rickman...woops!
Corr, this is my 80th post. That's a lot for me. I've started so many diaries and never reached the end! I think blogging is the best way of doing it for me...though I do like getting a pen out and actually writing. Maybe I'll hand write a post one day and scan it in!
Anyway, I'd better go and get practising!
Lots of love xoxoxox
P.S - I hope you've been feeding my fish! lol
Saturday, 25 July 2009
Thanks Brooke! lol. She introduced me too, she was so good. She's such a little actress. :)
Oh I've got a pic of Violet...
She likes to watch the Moto GP with Dad - Dad's a huge Valentino Rossi fan, so he was pretty pleased at this pic! lol...
I'd better go and get practising now...I'm still in my jim jams! lol
Friday, 17 July 2009
Sunday marked a year since the man whom this song was written about...
...left us. So we went to the cemetery and left a rose there for him.
Monday. Ah yes. Monday was Ben's birthday, so we spent the day together. I cooked a three course meal for him - which was VERY stressful!...but it seemed to turn out OK, and I think he liked it...apart from the yells of "BEN LEAVE ME ALONE!!! I'M PANICKING!!!" and "I CAN'T CONCENTRATE WITH YOU WATCHING ME!!! GOOOO AWAAAAY!!!" That's right, I can shout - as loud as capitals. I can be a bit of a boss floss really. I have a video of me doing a puzzle with my Nannie when I was about 2 and I'm being incredibly bossy and she says "Alright boss floss!" It's because I like everything to be just so. Anyway - the meal/breakfast turned out rather well actually, if I may say so myself.
Breakfast: Caramelised pears with Scotch pancakes and a dollop of double cream. (Everything's measured in dollops these days - get with the times!)
Starter: Warm goat's cheese on a bed of salad with sesame seeds and a rich balsamic dressing.
Main: Chicken fillet stuffed with grated, strong cheddar cheese, Boursin and wholegrain mustard, wrapped in two pieces of bacon, with salad leaves and baby new potatoes.
Dessert: Chocolate tart thing with moussey stuff in it and topped with a dollop of cream and one cherry with chocolate sauce.
So that was that! And then Ben and I went out to a Chinese Restaurant with Ben's parents and brother for tea. It was really posh, but I felt really guilty because I couldn't eat very much and it was pretty much an all you can eat thing.
So that was Monday.
Ummm...Tuesday? Oh yes! On Tuesday I went into school to collect a 'prize' as our school prize giving was cancelled. They just held a really mini prize giving for trophy winners, which means that I won a trophy! Cool. :) So, I got there and sat down with my friends and then they called out the names of the winners and what they'd won...(none of us knew what we'd won before they called out our names)...and then Mr. Jones called out 'Holly Kirby Level 3 Music' and I kind of feel and "Oh no!!!" in my tummy, because the exam went terribly and I can pretty much guarantee that I've got below what I need for Uni. And then whilst I was thinking about that, he called out 'Holly Kirby Level 3 German' and I was like "Oh!!" lol. So I got two awards. And I also got a certificate saying that I had been commended in Music, German and English Lit...which is all of my subjects! Which is also cool. The trophies mean that you're the 'best in your year' for that particular subject. Well. I'm one of two in music. Me and Larry, the guy who did the porn thing. And in German, I'm one of......
Maybe I shouldn't have told you that, then you would've thought that I was just really good. Hah. :)
After that, Donna picked me up in her convertible and we whizzed of into the sunset. The End...
Or is it?
On Wednesday we (Mum, Dad, Holly, Ben) went to see Brooke's end of year play. The children performed Scheherazade - 1001 Arabian Nights and it was brilliant. Brooke had one of the lead roles and she was an absolute star. She remembered all her words and put loads of expression in. I felt so proud. It's Brooke's last year at primary school this year - so after the performance (still on the stage) they had a little prize giving for all the Year 4 leavers. The class teachers asked each child to stand up individually, and then read a little piece out that they'd written about the child. Brooke's teacher's piece about her was so lovely. She obviously knows her very well. After each child had been spoken about and collected a little present (a book) from the school, the teacher's handed out a few trophies. I remember them from when I was at school. There's a 'Good Citizen' trophy for the person who is always kind and caring around school and looks after others, there's a Numeracy and Literacy trophy for the person who is best at maths and the person who is best at Literacy, and there's also the 'Sunshine trophy'. The Sunshine trophy is for the child who is always happy around school, helpful, caring, works hard...the person who is literally...a little ray of sunshine... :)
Brooke got it!!! I was so proud I burst into tears! lol. I know...bit of a numpty...I never usually cry/get emotional at anything like that. Sometimes I do at sad TV dramas but not happy crying. The last time I cried because I was happy was when I received a message from Enya. And the time before that was when Brooke was born, and that was when I was nine! She thoroughly deserved the trophy, she's just so wonderful.
So yes, that was a very good Wednesday.
That was yesterday...yes. I went to the mainland to do some shopping. I got...
White shoes for customization
Glasses for mum
Play tunnel for Violet
Two little bags
A T-Shirt for Ben
That might've been it. It didn't come to much. Everything was cheap. For example - shoes = £2.50. - Braces = 50p!
That's today. I'm going to do a set tonight at a disco - just to break it up in the middle. It's 80s themed so I'm going as Deborah Harry - HOORAAAY!!! I wanted to go as Hans Gruber...
*Swoooon*...but Ben wouldn't allow it. Grrr...
So that's today really. I'm also taking Violet to the vet for her vaccinations. And next week I'm tidying my room which will be reeeeally...time consuming!
Saturday, 11 July 2009
It's the feeling that I had in the long holiday after GCSE. It's a kind of naive...hopeful feeling. I'm not saying that I've been feeling depressed, or in a state of lacking hope...but before the exams, possibly since September, I've been feeling...kind of...flat. A bit nothingy. But during the past few days things have picked up, and that may have something to do with the videos. It feels like I can see clearly again and I'm more aware of my own thoughts. I'm enjoying listening to music again, and it makes me feel like it used to - alive - and passionate. I think passion was the missing component. But now I want to learn, I want to listen and improve. I want to create things and get things wrong so that I know how to do them properly the next time around. I'm going to delve into the misty depths that comprise my own confusing little mind and try to make some sense of what's going on in there.
I was also thinking today about why I feel awkward talking to people. I find it particularly difficult talking with people my own age. When I make friends it always to seems to be on the surface. I feel like I'm not telling them everything. I tend to think...if I can't even understand me then I'm not really giving them a chance. I find talking to adults easier. I like to think about serious things - things that are to do with life, love, real things, the way we are. And because that's led me to think in such a serious way, I find that when I talk to people who are my own age, it feels like I have to 'adapt'. Sometimes Ben and I talk and he tells me to 'be a teenager'. I think he's right, but it's hard to change just like that, and I cant, because my heart wouldn't be in it if I tried. I like talking to interesting people who have stories to tell, rather than learning what's hot and what's not. Fashion doesn't really interest me. I like to wear what I like to wear and if that's what's 'in' then so be it, but I wouldn't change just to be a clone. We're born to be different, so what's the point in being the same? I think nature's giving us a bit of a clue there.
I ought to go now. I'm sorry about the waffle, I just thought I'd speak before I lost the moment.
Night night xxxxx
P.S - I love you guys oxoxoxo :)
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
Sorry I haven't been on for the past couple of days, - I've been spending quite a bit of time on the video I've just uploaded...
I kind of had troubles with the video for this one. I tried a number of ideas, but went with the really simple one in the end. Thankyou so much for your lovely comments. It really means a lot. :) I'm really glad that you like it. I hope to do another one shortly - Gone For Good - and possibly a couple more - which probably means that I won't be round much for the next couple of days.
Anyway, I'd best be off,
Night night xxxxx
Saturday, 4 July 2009
Today I started to record Gone For Good on Cubase in preparation for YouTube, but things didn't seem to be going quite right. And then we noticed that something wasn't quite the ticket with Violet. She's very sleepy and doesn't move very far without having to lie down - and she was sick this afternoon. :( So I called the emergency vet and took her up to be checked over. She couldn't really tell what was wrong, but thought it was probably tummy problems and said that we should keep an eye on her - and she also gave her some antibiotics. I'm worried about her - I really hope she gets better soon. She's normally so lively, but she has been so lethargic today. I really hope she perks up soon.
Anyway, I'd better go now,
Thursday, 2 July 2009
Well, it's Leavers tonight. I'd better get practising.
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
Last night's little gig thingy went pretty well I think. I was just a bit of entertainment after the people had eaten. I did six songs - Tea Leaves and Old Magazines, Beautiful Deceit, Tripping Through Violets, 1 2 3 4 (by Feist), Carrickfergus and Poetry. It was really fun and I got some lovely feedback afterwards. I was a little nervous about doing Carrickfergus as I'd never done that one live before and slower songs are generally harder to sing live because the long sustained notes provide more nervous wobble opportunities! But I was really chuffed because I just thought to myself 'just get on with it' and I did - and I didn't do any nervous wobbles. (I don't think so anyway!)
People came up to me afterwards to tell me that they enjoyed it which was cool. :) One man said that he really enjoyed listening to my lyrics, and a couple of people told me how Celtic I sounded which I was really pleased about. :D One lady was telling me how Celtic Tea Leaves and Old Magazines sounded - and another lady said that she also had Irish roots and really enjoyed Carrickfergus.
All in all it was a good little gig thing. :) I enjoyed it a lot. :)
The Buddle Inn tonight - I'm doing a thirty minute set which will probably consist of...
Tea Leaves and Old Magazines
Tripping Through Violets
Gone For Good
Topsy Turvy World
...with I Live Through the Song as a spare.
Our school leavers ball is tomorrow evening and I'm also playing there as people are coming in. I'm really looking forward to that actually. When I first started singing I found it so difficult to sing in front of friends - but now I really enjoy it. Because they know me already it feels like they're extra supportive - whereas when you perform to people you don't know - you know that they're judging you/forming an opinion of you for the first time which is the nerve-wracking bit!
So - a pretty busy week this week! Three gigs in one week is quite tiring, but I imagine that when the music year gets into full swing I'll be sometimes doing more than that!
P.S - Not sure what possessed me to do those italics, but I think it's a little more grammatically correct. Sleep deprivation...
P.P.S - Happy Canada Day! :)