I was thinking earlier - image is a strange thing. Thinking about how you to look, trying not to care about how you look. Image is something I tend to think about quite a bit. I don't mean that I spend a lot of time thinking about how I want to look, but I think about the subject as a whole.
I think I'm quite a fickle person. Maybe fickle isn't the right word. I'm a girl who changes her mind quickly. Today I want to be a music teacher, tomorrow I want to be a policewoman, today I want to be individual, outgoing, tomorrow I want to hide behind dark glasses and a polo neck top.
This becomes quite a problem when choosing what to wear or deciding how I want people to perceive me, and as I don't even understand me it's hard to decide how I want them to understand me.
I find the hardest thing is to be individual. I'm oversensitive and not very confident so say for example...
If I was feeling particularly 'individual' and confident one day and decided to wear something that I wouldn't usually be brave enough to and...say...I walked past a group of girls who giggled as I went by (probably about something completely unrelated) then my confidence would plummet and I'd feel awful about myself for the rest of the day.
I am getting better - but I find it so hard not to care what others think. I'd love to have the confidence not to care at all.
To be honest I think losing a little bit of weight might help there. I just want to have a flat belly! lol. I don't mean that I want to be skinny, I just need to tone up my flabby tum really! Then I'd feel like I had more of a choice about what clothes I could wear. I'm quite tall - 5 foot 10 - but I weigh about 11 stone. Ideally I'd like to be 10...but I like cake! lol. I know that I just need to exercise more. Anyway...
Yes, image is a weird thing. There are so many influences in the world, it's hard to know what IS individual. I guess the answer is that nothing is. Everything is made up of/has been influenced by something else. It's just a unique combination of a variety of influences which makes each of us individual.
I'd better go to bed now as it's getting late.
The exam went ok by the way - fingers crossed anyway! 1 down - 6 to go!
Night night xxxxx
P.S - Every so often I think I'll attach a video that I particulary like to watch at the end of the post. Here's one that I'm loving at the mo. :)
Video of the moment! lol...